Oh! these menses...

I worry a lot about my menstrual bleeding. I keep thinking about it most of the times. I am not obsessed with it but as a female with a bleeding disorder it is quite normal. The thing which I hate the most is having profuse, heavy and prolong menstrual bleeding. I just do not like it. My work efficiency gets decreased during menses. Sometimes I have to take leave from my work which I dislike the most. This time my menses started when I was making IQ report of a patient at the OPD. My lower back started paining badly and I could hardly move. It was so difficult for me to reach the metro station and board the train to go back home. Somehow I managed to start walking from the hospital and ultimately reached the metro station. The train was late by 7 minutes and I had to stand. There was no space available for sitting. The train came and I got a sigh of relief. Surprisingly the compartment was extremely crowded and I was getting irritated. There was a group of girls who were talking so loudly that I felt like scolding them. But I had no energy to do so. Frankly speaking I had no right to scold them. We live in a democratic nation and everyone has freedom to expression through words. Isn't it? I would have surely got into an argument with those girls in the train. Then suddenly an old woman pushed me so hard that I fell on the floor. I do not understand why can't people walk in a civilized manner. She didn't even say sorry to me. I starred at her but did not say anything. I was very annoyed by her behavior.

After reaching home I took painkiller, factor injection and hot water bag therapy. I slept for four hours and felt a little better when I woke up. My mum asked me to stay at home and rest for a day. I agreed and decided to stay back at home.

I took an off today so that I could rest. My lower back pain is still there but it will subside in few days. Sometimes I feel that having a bleeding disorder is a real challenge. It makes me weak for a while but with my mum's support and care I always face it bravely. My friend Suchu called me and asked about my condition. It was so nice to talk to her. Her soothing words gave me comfort. I really love her and she also loves me truly. We have a wonderful bonding and we also have share common interests. 

Today is my second day of bleeding and I got many get well soon messages from my friends. I am hoping to get back to my work tomorrow.